[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
sweetness vs bitterness
no matter how much sweetness you can give me, the bitterness will always have a stronger taste in my mouth. call me a bitter person. i dont really care. that's cuz i believe even in sweetness, there's bitterness hidden within. dont wanna be fooled by the candy-coated sweet that comes my way. cuz once the candy coat is gone, what's left might just be pure bitterness. try you may to spit it out, but the bitter taste remains.
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JoC was confused at 3:50 PM
realisation
had a spliting headache last night. it still hurts now. is it physical or mental? i dont know.
while i was feeling like crap, i had time to think. i still love boyzone's songs. always have. anyway, i came to the realisation that for once, i didnt regret those chances that i had let passed. those lost chances you might call it. cuz if i didnt, i might be living in regret now. i rather regret the past then live in regret. there's a difference.
oh. and the warm chocolate cake at Baker's Inn was damn nice. a little on the expensive side though. it's something nice to indulge in when there's a need to.
=o
JoC was confused at 3:49 PM
running away
when things dont go the way i planned, i usually start to find excuses, and tries to run away. i'm such a coward, aint i? i cant find the courage to face the facts, to look at things straight in the face and say, "whatever. no matter what, i'm gonna get pass these crap. you cant make me stumble." instead, i hide, hoping that when i emerge from hiding again, all will be well. it usually is. people forget. chances passed by. things become normal again. and i'm still running the moment that changes.
for someone who runs that much, my stamina sux big time.
=(
*-actually, i dont really know what i'm writing. was just looking at kim's nick and got "inspired" to write. so crap.-*
JoC was confused at 11:35 PM
milestone, oh and "turn left, turn right"
it's over. for now that is. it's back to school tomorrow. i still cant believe the school didnt even give us a day of holiday to rest. have practicals to do, papers to check. a maths being the first. i hope i wont need tissues.
pierced my ears to set a milestone. was in shock for a while. i must be the stupidest person right then. chose a pair of earings that is so obviously not right for school cuz it's nicer, while not thinking that i still have to go to school. after piercing, then i started worrying if i'll get caught in school. firstly, cuz it's the second hole, and secondly, it's not the accepted stud. (so shiny that it sparkles. so obvious.) shall start queuing at the back from tomorrow onwards. hee. mum said i should have waited till after exams. well, i just didnt want to wait. i felt that i had to do something to mark the day i end my prelims. shall pierce another one after o's. or something of equality. i must be crazy.
saw seng today again. as usual, i have something to say about his friends. true, his friends didnt say much, but they didnt have to speak much to show how immature they are. the moment i said hi only, his friends went ,"SY!!!" in a teasing voice. right. it's SUCH a great surprise to know a person of the opposite sex. wow. it's one of a kind. get real. i dont see my friends acting this way, and i assure you that we aint really mature in the first place.
wonder why i'm writing this anyway. i just need to write something, anything. havent been bloging much, was missing it. haha.
oh, met pau at seoul garden today. at first only her friends were there, waving at me the moment i stepped in. shocked. haha. then pau joined them later. such a coincidence. anyway, i think gil, jn, lulu, hl and me ate a lot today. haha. was feeling so stuffed after eating, and we still had to run all the way to cine cuz we were late for the movie, "turn left, turn right". i think that's the correct title. the show's not bad. rather funny. but not very realistic though. which brings me to the point that i must watch "underworld"! the ad seems super cool. i like the colour black. internal affairs II too, cuz there's two cute actors. heehee. i managed to get the postcard with their faces.
gotta go to penilin silver tomorrow. the 50% off thingy is almost over.
saturday, it's movies at tiff's.
so many things, so little time. i cant believe it's only about 4 weeks away. i still thought it was ages away. how dumb can i get?
=)
JoC was confused at 8:45 PM
seeing is believing. or is it?
you said you could see it. it's those little things that add up. i see it too. but i wouldn't be quick to judge them just yet. cuz everyone gets the same treatment too. it's how things are. i've learn long ago not to take things for granted, that what's right in front of you might not be true, especially when it comes to things like this. call me an idiot if you will, but i will only believe it when i see it in true light. till then, i'm keeping it locked up.
i've long forgotten where i kept the key.
=|
*-silence is easy. it's learning how to be comfortable with it that is not. i'm still learning.-*
JoC was confused at 2:30 PM
the magic number 2
just two more paper. just two more days.
shall not mull over the prelims now. it's better to spend the time thinking what to do after prelims. hee. and finally got this month's allowance! gil and JN already thought out the plan of what we're gonna do. but i'm sure we wouldn't follow it. when have we? haha. well, as long as it's not studying, i wouldn really mind where we go. it's time to take a break from studying.
=)
JoC was confused at 2:22 PM
