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Friday, December 19, 2003

wee morning

after going offline at 1 plus in the morning, i suddenly decided to pack my room after putting it off for so many days. threw so many worksheets away, filled 2 rubbish bags, and yet my room looked equally messy. what's more, the box which i'm supposed to clear got filled up with more things cuz i got sick of packing at 4am. went to sleep instead. and this morning, i couldnt pull myself up on time to meet sok and co. so here i am, blogging before i leave the house. haha.

dreamt of scouts(some scouts event where all scouts come together), RN and gf(which is actually his mother in the dream), seng and pau appeared somewhere in the dream, uncle in scouts uniform and dad trying to draw a map in the mud for me to some place. think there was a cute scout too. but cant really remember. haha.

ok. i better leave the house now or by the time i reach west coast, they would be leaving.

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JoC was confused at 10:56 AM

rmps6a99

finally had a gathering again after three years. the last one was in sec 1 june holidays. not many people turned out this time, but still i had fun. lots of fun.

played badminton in the morning with irene and sam cuz i was too lazy to wake up for the movie. haha. so was late meeting the others. by the time we reached TB, it was time to go back where we came from. so dumb right? haha. saw CJ at the bus-stop. i could swear he saw us, and thinking we didnt see him, tried to hide beside his friend. but in the end he turned and said hi. i think that was cuz we were saying, "Hey, that's CJ right???". nevermind. he doesnt know what he's missing man.

anyway, after that went to jas's house to prepare the stuff. when we were done, it started raining! so had to wait for the rain to stop. and i guess the guys literally crawled to jas's house, cuz i think they took more than half an hour to get to her house when they were only at ange's house.

rain finally stopped. fire was started. after a very long while that is. two scouts present. one was hard at work, the other with his hands in his pockets. haha. oh oh, did i mention that SF actually came???? yes, she did. and so did pei wen. i was so surprised. and they stayed quite long also.

this time i slacked. didnt really cook any food or clear the pit after bbqing. haha. i just sat there to eat and talk. haha. winston was telling us about NUS days. seems very fun. i get past JC life then i say.

heard more gossips about my ex-classmates. one was very shocking, and it got many exclaiming loudly. another i already guessed it. i must say i am rather disappointed. it's like something that is valuable, left someplace for sometime, and due to factors, turns useless.

anyway, we planned a surprise for sam. i thought he would have guessed it. but i guess he didnt. either that or he was pretending he didnt know.

after the pit was cleared, and miss g and winston left, we played heartattack. was actually quite fun. it was damn nice playing card games in a quiet and cooling place with friends. maybe we should have played truth or dare. haha. but then, who would really say the truth? played till 12am before trying to discuss where to go. they didnt want to go home so i called my dad to ask if they could go my house and he said to ask my mum. but my mum was sleeping. and he said, "ask me for what?". umm. if i dont ask him, then i ask who? my sis ah? so i went home while the others are still out now. sighz. and they were thinking about alcohol! ah! i want! i wish i was still out. oh nevermind. i should be glad mum even let me out till so late.

mum better let me stay over at miss g's house or someone's house on countdown day. i'm sure we will have more fun than we did today. actually, i cant wait for that day to come, even if it signals the end of holidays.

i'm gonna miss miss g when she leaves for US to study. sighz. what's the point of going back to rmps then? *now i just sound mean. the other teachers are still there. but that's not the point.* rmps would never be the same again. and we cant invade the HOD room or any other rooms anymore. that's sad.

but still, it was a great day. if only i took more photos. hmm...

=)

JoC was confused at 1:16 AM

-•- Wednesday, December 17, 2003

posting

woke up with my phone "ringing". was in silent mode but the bed vibrated. anyway, it was pau. she was asking if i got myself into sajc arts, cuz her friend got 13 too and got into Cj instead, her 6th choice. my first thought was, "oh shit it!" i told pau i'll go check. but realised i dont know where i put my documents. after much searching before i realised they were in the VJC bag. was so gekked when i realised all you needed was your IC number. what crap.

anyway, imagine my relief when i saw SAJC Science on the screen. thank goodness. it's times like this that i'm glad for bonus points.

rmps6a99 gathering tomorrow! cant wait. hope it goes well. and SF said she most probably would be going. yea! but i doubt we would be able to buy tickets for LOTR3 tomorrow. we would then have 6 hours to spare till we can bbq. oh well, it would still be a fun day.

note to self: bring camera.

=)

JoC was confused at 12:10 PM

-•- Monday, December 15, 2003

truimph in the skies

// STORY OVERVIEW //

The old Hong Kong Airport area was where the star of our story Tong Yik Sum grew up and with the aeroplanes flying over his head every day made him fall in love with them. Later, due to a breakdown between his parent's personalities, his mother left him for a faraway place, leaving Sum with a wish to become a pilot to be able to bring back his mother and reunite his family. His family background caused the intelligent and sensible Sum to become even more responsible and from a young age, he is able to look after his father. Through this hard work, he gradually reaches his goal in becoming an airline pilot.

As a senior first officer, Sum's wish all along is to become the first Chinese captain and thus is very strict with his work, with very high expectations from himself and because of this, he is highly respected in his work. As far as Sum is concerned, when flying a plane, to follow every process and procedure is not a difficult thing and with experience it has become second nature to him; conversely, on his communication skills with other people, he finds it hard to grasp, especially when it comes to affairs of the heart, proving the separation of his parents had a deep and lasting effect.

Sum's childhood friend Ling Wan Chi became an aircraft enthusiast with him and then went on to become a pilot as well, but Chi has a different philosophy on love. Chi tells Sum that they should seek out true love, but he will not take things a step at a time like Sum and lose out on some golden opportunities. He will take the driving action and even though others see him as the flirtatious pilot, he has his principle in that he is flirtatious but not rude, he takes this 'branding' in his stride. In the same airport, flight attendant Lok Yi Shan also has the dream of finding true love, but her fate is that she has not yet met with it. Until Shan meets obstacles with her work and decides to resign and take a holiday, where she meets Sum and Chi under the arrangement of destiny and starts a journey where they all seek out their true love...

Rome, Italy. A lively and romantic city that seems to suggest that a hot romantic love affair is about to begin. Sum arrives in Rome through work and a Chinese person in a foreign place will have special memories of everything he meets. Sum and Shan meet by coincidence and the sentimental Shan sees this as the arrival of her destiny, with Sum also developing an unusual feeling for her. In the bustling romantic atmosphere of a foreign land, the two spark off a heated love affair and experience for the first time a taste of passion and a promise of love. However a great misunderstanding causes Sum and Shan to believe that they have been deeply misled and what started as a love sent from the heavens has become a great disappointment. Sum returns to Hong Kong with his colleagues deeply upset and hurt and the sensitive Shan is left alone in the foreign place, feeling very sorry for herself. At this point, she meets with Chi who has arrived later and under his enthusiastic pursuance, Shan overcomes her unhappiness. In the words of Chi, Shan's appearance is a blessing, a confirmation and he quickly chooses her as a target, selecting her to be his partner for life.

During the short time that Sum was in Rome, the most memorable thing for him, apart from Shan was a youth - Ying Fung. In an incident, Sum developed a very strong dislike towards Fung and felt that he was always lazing about and not serious at all. Altogether, this trip to Rome was a terrible experience for Sum and moreover, his bad times created a chance for his good friend Chi to meet and start a love affair with Shan. The reunification of his parents reveals to Sum that when his mother left all those years ago, she was carrying his younger brother Tong Yik Fung when she left and what is more surprising is that Yik Fung is the Ying Fung that he met a year ago in Rome.

When he hears that Shan is to transfer from the Australian base back to Hong Kong, Chi shares this with Sum and Shan meets him again as Chi's fiancée and the forgotten memories once again stimulate their hearts and feelings. Sum offers his sincere congratulations to Chi and Shan in order to allow Shan to relish in Chi's love. During this time, Fung starts to fall in love with So Yee who works in the aviation authorities, but during his chase, he finds that So Yee only has feelings for his big brother Sum, however he only sees her as a little sister and does not care for her love. As a result, Yee becomes another obstacle in the relationship between the two brothers.

Applying for the pilot's school with Fung and also full of confidence, externally bold but internally sensitive is Tung Hei Yan. Yan has little confidence in love and men and has a rather rebellious nature, wanting to do better than men in everything and causing some friction with Fung. With a simple and naive outlook on life and having been showered with love from his rich parents who are directors in a large enterprise, Man Ho Chung develops love at first sight with Yan and her rejections only spur his desires on even more, even making him apply to become a trainee pilot to be near her. After many examinations and as she is waiting for the results as to whether she will be selected for training in Australia, Yan finds some clues about her father's identity and heads to Japan to search for him. In order to prove his commitment to her, Chung and some friends go with her and as Fung is at a rough patch with his family, he decides to go along as well.

Originally thinking that he could put the Rome incident behind him after Chi and Shan's wedding, Sum finds that destiny is taunting him and the road towards a perfect wedding is a complicated triangular love affair. The misunderstanding between Sum and Shan is discovered by Fung and he finally decides to let them overcome their differences and let Shan make a fair choice between him and Sum. Shan's decision brings much relief to Chi, but the experience leaves a thorn in the relationships between the three waiting for the sensitive one to feel the pain and that person is Chi. After this incident, the relationships between the three become even more confusing as Shan and Chi bring together the love between Yee and Sum. With the addition of Yee, this four-person affair becomes an even more difficult situation.

During the training in Australia, Sum and Fung's brotherly relationship develops into a teacher-student situation. Sum returns to Hong Kong to continue his piloting work and the brothers have a chance to work together. As a group of young pilots take to the skies, Sum and Chi are also affected by their spirit and together they work towards their most important examination. At this vital point, Sum finds out that he has a condition that will affect his ability to continue flying and he is plunged into hesitation and despair as he worries about his career. Fung senses something is wrong and finds out about Sum's illness, he decides that this should not be allowed to continue and using the safety of the aircraft as a reason, he reports Sum to the authorities, saying he can no longer be a pilot. Just as everyone is celebrating Chi's success at becoming the first Chinese captain, the announcement is made that Sum is to be transferred into customer services. The ups and downs of flying are like those in life and to continue to pursue one's goals even at the bottom of a valley, there is a belief that there will be a day when you can fly high again.

Sum faces the challenges of his new work with optimism and positivity. At this time Yee's concern and support for him touches him deeply, consolidating his love for her. Originally their pairing was the wish of Chi and Shan, but when Shan sees Sum and Yee acting so lovingly together, she starts to feel jealous and this is discovered by the sensitive Chi. Finally, Chi makes a decision to return to his home in Australia in the hope that Shan can make her decision again. On the other hand: Fung, Yan and Chung's friendship is tested. Chung is still madly in love with Yan, but Yan's relationship with Fung has developed from antagonism to that of affection resulting in an awkward triangular affair. An incident occurs that shows Fung his care for Yan is nowhere near that of Chung and together with Chung's inadvertant pressure on him, this makes him decide to fade out and distance himself from the others.

At this time, Sum and Shan's path appears to be smooth and free from obstacles, however Shan finds out that the more she gives to Sum, the greater she feels the love that Chi gave to her and this is something that Sum can never offer her. Who is the one she loves the most, who is the one who loves her the most, will there be a fruitful result for the love between Shan and Sum? When Fung sees Yee sacrificing herself but pulling back from Sum, will there be more conflict between him and his brother? With Fung, Yan and Chung's love affairs and friendship in a stalemate position, will there be a new development?

Tong Yik Sum - Francis Ng Chun Yu ---> the not-shuai-but-the-more-you-watch-the-more-you-will-like-him pilot
Ling Wan Chi - Joe Ma Tak Chung
Lok Yi Shan - Flora Chan Wai Shan
So Yee - Myolie Wu Hang Yee
Tong Yik Fung - Ron Ng Cheuk Hai ---> the rather shuai pilot
Tung Hei Yan - Michelle Ye Xuan
Man Ho Chung - Sammul Chan Kin Fung
Tse Lap Ho - Bosco Wong Chung Chak
Ko Chi Wang - Kenneth Ma Kwok Ming
Tong ??? - Shek Sau
Ying Shi Mei - Mary Hon Ma Lei
Ling Cheuk Ji - Woo Ding Yan
Tung Ting - Rebecca Chan Sau Chu
Kam Chak Tai - Lok Ying Kwan
Ching Yat Tung - Tang Chi Fung
Yau Wai Kei - Margaret Chung Lai Kei
Bui Ka Lo - Louisa So Yuk Wah
Szeto Hin - Edmond So Chi Wai
Tang Wai Nei - Natalie Wong Kei Ying
Chee Sheung Man - Deno Cheung Chung Chi
Tong Wan Miu - Fung Hiu Man
Chow Wan Tin - Lau Wing Kin

Did some surfing last night. found the name of my pilot guy. i concluded he's not that good looking after all. (i didnt even notice him in the other show he was in. haha.) but in the pilot uniform, even the ugly one becomes suave. hee. the names in bold are the characters that i like. both mr nice guy who sacrifice upon knowing the person they like like someone else. complex love relationship between brothers and good friends.

if you can understand cantonese, go rent the serial!!! even if you are not interested in guys, there's still a female pilot and many air stewardesses. haha. and the part about them having pilot lessons are so cool.

sighz. the tapes are coming too slowly.

oh yes. before someone claims i'm fickle-minded again, i shall mention my lawyer guy too. haha. Also not very good looking but is a nice guy.
Ben Lok Bun (played by Raymond Lam)
An outgoing, witty, humourous, and intelligent young man whose modes of transportation include the bus and rollerblades. Appears to have loose morals due to his jokester exterior, but actually houses a golden heart with impressive integrity in his personality. Gets along with people very well due to his happy-go-lucky personality, an observant and skilled new lawyer who combines both intelligence and compassion when dealing with his cases. Enjoys taking care of other people, and because of this has been nicknamed "Big Brother Ben". A young man who places great weight on friendship, love, and also family. Comes from a modest home, a filial son who dotes on his younger sister. Originally became a lawyer when his high school friend was framed and sent to prison 7 years ago; Ben has since vowed to help the "little people" fight against the "big corporations" in his cases and values ethics and righteousness above all else.

what a great guy. hee.

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JoC was confused at 10:52 PM

thailand

what do you know? i'm going on a holiday afterall. and i dont need to pay a cent for the trip there. if i want, i dont even need to pay a thing, even after i reached there. but nah, i'm not that thick-skin. my aunt and uncle treating me you see. actually they called my another cousin along but he had to work. i'm always the second choice. there were free trips to thailand and malaysia before, but i couldnt make it. and anyway, others had rejected it before it reached me. didnt want to go this time too, cuz was thinking what if i have to work, and it would be hard talking to my aunt and uncle and elder cousin. but since it's free, and the people havent called yet, why not? it's better than spending the days doing nothing at home. there's only how often i can go out a week. i dont have that much friends to keep me company for 7 days a week.

anyway, ya, i'll be going thailand on the 25th till the 28th. i'll make sure i buy lots of stuff. haha. i think i better ensure that i bring a large luggage. hope i'll have fun. there's water sports but everyone's telling me not to try cuz it's the monsoon season. oh well, at least there's still the nice sun!

oh yes! shall write about the trip to the tour agency. i thought it would be a rather wuloo place, being in people's park. i always have the thought that old people hang out there. guess i was wrong. cuz there were a number of tour agencies there, but still, the one we went to was so damn crowded that we had to wait so damn bloody long. even when it was our turn, it was damn long too. i think it's cuz the man has low efficiency. was so irritated cuz i had terrible cramps and there were so little seats. got so terrible that i felt so cold. oh and the man thought he was funny.

man: "under this section put student. dont follow this one and put housewife ok? HAHA." oh someone save me. i'm laughing so hard i could die. as if. showed a stoned face throughout. if people said i was dao, they should have seen me then.

anyway, before that, while waiting, i was standing near the entrance. (the place is so small there's not much place to stand anyway.) it's my normal reaction to turn and look at the door each time someone enters. (nothing else to do also.) and guess who walked in wearing his usual gear. (nah. i aint mentioning who.) i was so shocked. of all places, i meet him here. ok. didnt dare look cuz if i did, it would have seemed like i was staring. so the next time i looked up, he was gone. i wonder if i was imaginating things. i doubt so.

i hate the feeling i got there and then. what the hell am i doing?

=S

JoC was confused at 12:11 AM

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