[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
erms
i rather not say a straight 'no'. i rather act blur.
maybe it's true that i'm fussy. but i do not believe in wanting something just for the sake of wanting it. i believe in wanting something cuz i really like it. is that really so hard to understand? is it wrong to believe that?
haiz.
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JoC was confused at 11:40 PM
farewell dinner
just got home from sha's farewell dinner. she's leaving on the 5 o'clock flight tomorrow. time passed so fast. it was on the day tiff left that she said she was leaving. and now the day has come. haiz.
anyway, we went cine pastamania to eat. then we went to take neoprint before heading to the coffeebean at centrepoint.
there were so many things to catch up on. it felt great to be able to talk freely without worrying how they are going to judge me. or feel self-conscious. basically it just felt great to be able to talk so much till we were fighting to get heard. haha. omers are noisy that's for sure.
there's gonna be very little om outings now i guess. that's sad.
gil is now known as gossip central. haha. it even matches her initials. she ah, really know alot of things. not about her school one she also know. haha.
something is scaring me. erms.
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JoC was confused at 11:32 PM
self-pity
i'm gonna be late but just let me wallow in self-pity first.
sha's leaving tomorrow, so we are all supposed to fold something for her. i folded hearts. while folding, the hearts reminded me of the day that's arriving. the dreadful day for people like me. sighz. the day where you cant help feeling out of place.
there must be something i'm doing wrong.
no time for self-pitying now. i'll continue when i get home later.
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JoC was confused at 4:40 PM
heavy bag & Stuck On You
bag's bloody heavy today. i wonder why. shoulders aching.
i'm so happy for my class. today they went out and almost the whole class went! some girls didnt wanna go at first, but i kept asking them to go, though i didnt go myself. lol. went out with pau instead. but then, it was an unlucky day for them. something bad happened so they went home without eating. wg was saying i was lucky that i didnt go. hmm. we must really go out again someday.
couldnt pay attention in lecture again. ended up talking. haha. found someone i could suan since he always suan others too. and then, there was more teasing of two of my classmates. got pulled into it somehow. my class people can really twist things up man. but it was amusing somehow. haha.
here's the daily counter:
D.G: 0
P.G: 0
S.G: 1
sighz. the counter's really low today. sadz.
oh and "stuck on you" isnt that nice. what a disappointment.
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JoC was confused at 10:26 PM
email: reflections
>Everyday when you return from your school,
>>whether or not it is from a secondary school, a
>>junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would
>>probably think that school sucks.
>>
>>All that work and torture under your lecturer's
>>or teacher's homework or assignments, or
>>tutorials...
>>
>>But think about this, i mean really think. All
>>the time spent with your classmates, all the
>>laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that
>>your friends are there in your class.
>>
>>Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or
>>even all of them. You may not realise it, but
>>when advancing into the next level of education,
>>it is inevitable that some friends will be
>>parting with you.
>>
>>What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is
>>of you to think, for those who received this
>>mail, what do those people who were once or were
>>still your classmates and friends meant to you.
>>
>>Anyone who has at least finished their o levels
>>and has graduated from respective schools would
>>know the feeling of parting with your classmates
>>and friends.
>>
>>Not knowing when you still see them again.
>>
>>Perhaps the next day, the next week, month,
>>years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you
>>would realised how bitter sweet those memories
>>were, the fun you had with your classmates and
>>friends.
>>
>> That is why ever so often when you asked
>>someone which is the most fond memories they had
>>in their years in education, they would often
>>have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they
>>smile briefly.
>>
>>It's the memories of their school friends. Those
>>unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in
>>school.
>>
>>Each classmate had suffered under the same
>>stresses in school. The teachers, whether they
>>are kind or extremely strict.
>>
>>So treasure your schooling days, don't complain,
>>because you never know when you will miss them
>>dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those
>>treasured times in your youth.
>>
>>if this touches your heart, and reminded you
>>of those classmates who brought happiness,
>>laughter, colour to your life, you can pass it
>>on, let your classmates know that although all
>>these years, whether short or long, you still
>>have not forgotten them. Or...
>>
>>Let those whom are weak and tormented in the
>>spirit find strength in this letter, knowing
>>that someone still remembers them, and care for
>>them. No matter the circumstances.
>>
>>Even though I walk through the valley of the
>>shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you
>>are with me
>>
>>-Psalm 23-
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JoC was confused at 9:56 PM
in the LT
today i wasnt in the mood for lessons. barely listened in leatures today. but i did listen to the people around talking.
random sentences heard.
you staying in sa?
NO...
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where u wanna go?
acjc.
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you guys are nice but....
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should have taken computing.
you know computing meh?
can learn what.
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you staying on?
i dont know leh.
from what i heard, it is most likely that i wont be seeing most of my classmates after the 2nd intake. there is a very very slim chance that at least one of them would be in my class. given my luck, most probably i wont know anyone in my new class. sad. i'm begining to like my class.
i finally decided. i will join mentoring. i will heck touch rugby and dance. cuz those are really not for me. and maybe i'll join co-op if there's still place. hmm. one of the reason is i like selling stuff. the other.. haha.. it aint hard to guess...
and hey hey, i know bookshop guy's name! but i think i still prefer calling him bookshop guy. his name is too common. lol. ade thinks he's very cute too. she went for the co-op thingy and saw him and decided not to quit after all. haha. damn funny. she's asking me to join co-op with her. then dor gave some suggestions on getting to know him. damn lame. haha. but nah, he'll just remain an eye-candy only. cuz i know i'm not that lucky. haha.
to end this entry, the counter is here.
D.G: 2
P.G: 0
S.G: 4
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JoC was confused at 9:16 PM
raining again
it's raining. again. i skipped touch rubgy training. again. haha.
i went for the dance practice instead. it was quite tiring but fun. i only caught the first half of the dance steps. the rest i have forgotten. hee. but so many people were there that i managed to bluff my way through. -jaz, u could have come. no one would really know. haha.- shall go to dance practice on saturday too. i shall make use of the first three months to learn something before choosing a "stable" cca. cuz i dont think dance is for me. oh well, we'll see.
i have decided to start a counter thingy. hee. i shall try to keep track every day.
D.G: 5
P.G: 1
S.G: 0
hoho. dor thinks bookshop guy is very cute. is my taste good or what? hee. i think she probably thinks i'm boy-crazy. maybe i am. hmm... haha...
i'm talking more to my classmates. that's a good sign. but still, no one i can really really click with. but lucky for me, dor is a nice person to hang out with. she's easily amused too. haha.
what else did i wanna say ah? hmm... ... oh yes! i finally asked someone to lend me uniform. might be getting a scgs one tomorrow from my classmate. then i wanna borrow from irene and pau too. hmm. who else. oh yes, i asked ange this morning too. i want cedar and mgs uniform! but i dont know anyone from those schools.
i'm just rambling on... haha...
hmm.. i better start folding those hearts for sha by tomorrow.
sailing results still not out.
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JoC was confused at 6:07 PM
"interesting" fact
sunday's papers had this "interesting" bit which says that people who fall for those who will not fall for them, yet will not fall for those that fall for them have low self-esteem. someone please tell me how self-esteem has to do with that. haha.
oh and now dor thinks i have a good memory. cuz i remembered that mfly and bookshop guy would come out of the LT when we were waiting to get into the LT for econs. haha. i think it really depends on who the person is. lol.
i always remember useless things. in classes, i cant even remember what the teacher said seconds before. yet i can remember who comes out from the LT. so crap right? haha. selective memory. if only i can select to remember school work.
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JoC was confused at 11:02 PM
long day
today's pe was tiring but fun. ran 2.4km before playing floorball. i think 2.4km is the normal routine for pe. my group won all rounds we played, except one which was tied. hee. and still, sad news, my 2.4km isnt improving. under sa's standard, i failed. wth.
deciding whether to give up on touch rugby. cuz i dont think i will ever be able to run well enough for the game, nor do i think i can take the training. i even skipped yesterday's training. but then again, how can i give up so soon, like after one training??? on the other hand, i dont have that much of an interest for the game now. should i join dance instead? hmm. i would have to skip touch tomorrow again if i wanna go for dance. but i really dont want to face some people i know who's in dance. decisions decisions. this sucks.
oh well, i'll have a back-up in green club. the teacher is asking me to join cuz he thinks i'm good at computers. haha. if only he knew i wasnt lying when i said i dont know much.
i think some of my class guys are pretty funny. haha. sitting at the back is fun. super lame people who can really make you laugh.
actually, i'm afraid of result posting day. what if i cant get back into sa? what if the people i know change school? just when i'm getting used to the people, things change. haiz. i dont want to be alone.
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JoC was confused at 10:26 PM
small school
sometimes it's not a bad thing that the school is small. cuz it means you have more chances of meeting people you wanna meet. hee. and since there are limited classrooms, you have to move from classroom to classroom constantly. and who knows who could emerge from that classroom you are waiting to enter?
saw bookshop guy again. he was on his way to class. and who-else. who was waiting to get inside the class. hee. docas ask if i can remember faces well. i guess so. but most of the time, you remember their faces, but they dont remember yours. so it's not much of a use.
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JoC was confused at 10:00 PM
peter pan & house visiting
went house visiting yesterday. that was after the peter pan movie. people, go watch peter pan. it's really nice. at least i thought it was nice. maybe cuz i'm still childish. haha. but really... there was the funny part, the sweet part and the oh-my-god part sort of thingy. and yes, peter pan is cute. hee. really magical. thimble. hmm.
ok. house visiting. first we went to irene's house, then to my house, then to pau's house where we stayed till very late. i left her house after 12. it was as if we had no school the next day. lol.
there were so many people at irene's house. a family gathering thingy. ate and played cards at her house before processing to my house to collect my homework, and for them to collect ang baos. haha.
spent part of the time at pau's house finishing my homework while the others were playing. sadz. got accussed of being anti-social again. haha. but oh well, at least now i dont have to rush homework during breaks. and i did get to "play". ate pizza, drumlets and garlic bread. drank some alcoholic drink. no i didnt get drunk this time. and got kissed by pau's youngest sister. she's really so cute. haha.
oh oh. i must mention how utterly shocked i am that leon came along. i mean it's like he's not there for four years, and suddenly, he's here visiting house.
oh to quote a friend, "it would take alot of guts for a guy to come talk to you lohz." the words "ice queen" appeared somewhere before that sentence too. really sad news man. is it a crime to want to be silent?
anyway, thanks to irene and pau for letting us visit their houses!
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JoC was confused at 9:56 PM
