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Saturday, March 20, 2004

second posting

Yep. This pro-saint person has gotten back into the saints family. Also, a hobbit has become a new member of the family. lol.

shu's gonna be in the same school as me again. hee.

fakedoggie is still in.

ken is still in.

i wonder where did the rest go.

=)

JoC was confused at 11:35 AM

-•- Friday, March 19, 2004

a closed chapter

i guess this chapter has closed. it is shorter than the one before. but that is a good thing. i think. well, at least now i dont have to think how i am gonna write the chapter.

it's time for a new start.

=)

JoC was confused at 11:46 PM

married!

i got married at bugis today!

i did another lame thing today. haha.

I went out with gil, lulu, ys and hl today. we just sat around to talk. then we went to take neoprint. it was there that we had a "last minute wedding" that only had 3 guests. lol. i was the groom. gil was the bride. cuz there was this background of a wedding in the neoprint machine. and it just so happen that both of us were wearing the OM ring. lol. it was so funny. back home, we put nicks about the wedding and the neoprint as our display picture. that got many people asking. it's super lame. but we had a good laugh.

when we are young, we should do things that brings simple joy. cuz when we are older, there will be too much burden on our shoulders to enjoy the simple things.

=)

JoC was confused at 11:38 PM

-•- Thursday, March 18, 2004

my girl

the lead actor and actress are SO cute! certain parts of the show are really sweet. however, the choice of songs used could be improved cuz they are so corny! haha... but i think it is a really nice and funny show. then again, it could be because i was in an E.A mood. oh and the lead actor reminds me of my cousin when he was young. hee.

i didnt really like the ending of the show though.

anyway, me and shu finally had time to catch up and talk. it's nice chatting with her. hmm... then we took neoprints too, which sadly didnt turn up too well. guess both of us are too stoned today. haha.

met a number of people today. first, we met her classmates. they were in the same cinema with us. then saw some sa people too. while having dinner, i met my classmates.

Getting so tired lately. anyway, saw this short film on arts central just now. it's really meaningful. there's this part, "if things are meant to be forgotten, they would not linger there."

another part, "memory is a funny thing. you can run. you can hide. you can run to the end of earth. but memory still follows like a shadow."

there's more meaningful things said. i just cant remember them.

=)

JoC was confused at 11:37 PM

-•- Wednesday, March 17, 2004

tourists

pau and i were supposed to act like tourists today. i was supposed to be from the University of Colorado, and she was supposed to be from the Australia volleyball team. lol. but we didnt act our parts well. we got tired after just one stop: the merlion park. BUT Pau got to take with her cute merlion and i got to take my fighter jet in the sky. haha. but that's about all the photos we took. haiz.

pau asked me to include this here, so here it is: we saw this blond ang mo at Fulleton who was quite cute on our way out of the hotel after visiting their OH-MY-GOD-IT'S-SO-FREAKING-NICE toilet. she thinks he's not bad, but i beg to differ. hee.

we must be better tourists next time. hee.

=)

JoC was confused at 10:08 PM

-•- Tuesday, March 16, 2004

square one

I find myself back at square one once again. I have been through it before, but i still dont know how to move through it. I'm losing my grip. My frustrations are building up. Uncertainties haunt my thoughts. The front overtakes the soul. As it always does.

=|

JoC was confused at 10:55 AM

04S74 BBQ

i had cg outing yesterday. i got home from chee's house about an hour ago and i have been awake for at least 24 hours. i'm trying to see how long i can last.

this outing was quite sucessful i must say. i think most of us came. though there were not much interactions with everyone, i think most of us had a good time. i spent most of my time near the bbq pit, eating and cooking. haha. and i'm glad that everything that happened on friday has passed. i'm glad that there wasnt any awkwardness as i had expected. thank god the rain stopped by evening time.

i saw the orion again. it was faint, but still visible. if only the camera could capture it. i have never thought so much when looking at stars. maybe i should start thinking more.

time spent at chee's house was ok. We didnt really talked much though, which was a pity. i would have loved to crap. But i guess we havent gotten the level of being able to crap about anything and everything yet.

hmm... i really feel as if i have split personality when i talk to my angel and mortal at the same time. i sound so different even to myself. maybe that's why A thinks i'm not the quiet sort while jl thinks i am.

=)

JoC was confused at 10:53 AM

-•- Sunday, March 14, 2004

sorry

i really didnt mean for things to happen this way. i thought i made it clear. i guess it just wasnt clear enough for you. all i can say now is "sorry".

happier side: saturday's mission at sentosa was a success. haha. i really cant believe the crazy things i do sometimes.

anyway, after the mission, i was so tired that i went home to catch some sleep before heading out to meet pau. we went to watch Haunted Masion. it's a very lame show that doesnt really make much real sense but since i was in a pretty good mood, i laughed along with it. i loved the four heads. hee.

went to pau's house to stay after that. watched spy kids 2(another super lame show) and talked. sad to say we didnt manage to stay up all night. by 3.30am, we were already drifting off to sleep. haha. guess we were too tired.

back to the sad side: it's not really my fault, but still i feel bad. maybe i should have just kept my distance. but how can i ignore a friend in need? was i wrong to make the choice i did? how can both of the available choices seem so wrong?

=(

JoC was confused at 3:28 PM

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