[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
choices
didnt turn up for co-op again.
i'll never be in co-op. maybe it is a good thing. but there goes my PEARLs points for a second cca. i pray that guitar club will be set up.
i cant believe i sacrificed for Green Club. ade, beaver and me were doing the proposal for the competition, which we didnt finish in the end. i think our proposal really does not have the standard that a JC student should give. mostly cuz it does not even LOOK like a proposal in the first place.
i really dont mean to be there. it is not my fault you choose to appear in front of me every now and then.
what is wrong with you, fate? please stop playing this game with me. i cant play along. i dont want to play along. i'm too tired. i'm too weak. leave me alone or play fair. dont peek and then hide the moment i see you.
tell me what to choose. tell me what to do. cuz no matter what choice i make, it always seem to be the wrong choice. and there's no return. maybe i should just learn to stop turning back to regret and instead look front with a smile. but it's just so hard to do so.
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JoC was confused at 8:18 PM
haiz
what are the smiles about???
i know what i saw. i believe what i think is true. and what i believe isnt something good. dont tell me i'm being paranoid. cuz i dont think i am.
i dont know why i do the things i do. cuz i always regret the things i do after doing them.
only four months in school and i have chalked up so many stupid things in my STUPID THINGS DONE LIST. i think by the end of my two years in school i will have dug countless holes to hide my face. it doesnt help that the people who witness my stupid acts actually know each other.
now, just let me dig another hole to hide my face.
=S
JoC was confused at 9:29 PM
being nice
deseo usted no era tan agradable porque pienso tiendo para bully a gente agradable y estoy asustado que me caeré. me asustan de qué sucederá si me caigo. prefiero cosas para seguir siendo la manera que ahora están.
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JoC was confused at 9:11 PM
stoned
i went to the mangrove swamp yesterday to clean up. I was the trash bag holder and i'm having muscles cramps today due to that fact. and also, i was feeding the mosquitoes there. what else? my shoes fell apart when i got home. i got stuck in the mud. almost couldnt remove my shoe from the mud.
oh and we asked beaver to join our green club group. surprisingly he's putting much effort in the competition. guess i shouldnt have judged him so fast in the past.
hmm... i didnt go for my class outing. cuz i couldnt make it in time for their movie and they bought the tickets already anyway. so i went for dinner with hs instead. then we window shopped and saw Qoo! it was so cute!
then i met pau at city hall at night. We spent some time at the esplanade before heading to lao pau sa to eat supper. i saw the same five stars that i saw on thursday. anyway, it was 2am by the time we reached her house. we almost got trapped in the lift. it was pretty freaky cuz the lift kept shaking. it was like a horror movie.
i think if mum knew i was out till that late, she would definitely kill me. she was already making noise when i said i was going out for dinner, i havent even mention that i was going to stay at pau's house. i dont know what's wrong with her lately. she's asking more questions about who i'm going out with and where i'm going. maybe she's worried for me but i think she should learn to trust me. i know what i am doing. sometimes i cant stand her. she doesnt want me to date yet she's afraid i'll turn les. what crap right?
i'm feeling sick but i cant show it. cant give mum another reason to scold. haiz.
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JoC was confused at 6:07 PM
