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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
ARGH!!!
it's gonna be the last time i let my sis touch my computer. remember my decision to be nice to her? well, look where being nice to her got me. i was nice, so i allowed her to use the internet on my computer last night, despite the fact that the last few times she used my computer, my computer got infected with viruses and soon crashed. well, guess what? My computer got infected again!!! all the rubbish stuff appears. wtf. if my computer crashes again, she's gonna pay.
my computer hates her. she just have to accept that.
since this is an entry about me being pissed, let's continue on with another pissing-fying thing.
i cant believe how selfish my aunts are. i'm not talking about monetary items. i'm talking about basic things like thinking for others. if you were me, you would be pissed off too. because of them, i have higher respect for my dad. he has to face them and do things for them all the time cuz my dad is too super nice to ask them to stop pushing him around.
let's see, they are 50 odd years old and cant take bus themselves. they NEED my dad to fetch them to and fro EVERYDAY. Fetching them to and fro daily isn't asking too much, except for the fact that my 3rd aunt calls my dad up at around 5.45am to fetch her to her stall and help her set things up, then at night she calls more than 3-4 times to get my dad to fetch her home, when she hasn't even closed shop! guess what time it is when my dad reaches home from fetching them home. it's after 12.30am. or even after 1am. so that would mean my dad would have barely slept much before he has to wake up to fetch them again. do they know how tiring it is for my dad? i bet they never thought about it. they only care about themselves.
sometimes when there is a crowd, my 3rd aunt would call me to do down to help her. ok. i'm fine with that. i get paid anyway. But when there is no crowd, what's the use of me being there??? ok. that one is not an issue. but seeing how my aunts do things, i really wanna shout at them.
here's a real-life account when i was there the last time: there is hardly any customers yet my 3rd aunt calls me to go help out. so there i was wasting my time. as it got later, there hardly was any customers around. since there is no customers, they can pack up early right? NOOOO... they like to drag things on, neglecting the fact that when they close late, my dad suffers with them. my 2nd aunt finally starts cleaning up at 10plus pm, so she should be done very soon, especially since i already helped her clean all her bowls and stuff. but somehow, she managed to drag her task till well past midnight! and that was after repeated zui-ing that my dad has already arrived. she told my dad there was lots to do, i didnt rebutt her, but truth was, she was just taking her own sweet time. my 3rd aunt keeps calling my dad, telling him she's ready already. yet she hasnt even close shop. she waits till he's there before she keeps all her stuff and close shop. when my dad made noise and threatened to leave without my 2nd aunt, my 3rd aunt actually had the face to scold me dad. wtf. she has no right to do that. they are taking my dad for granted.
she called again just now, asking me to go down again. told her that my exams were coming up and she actually said, "it's only friday! you still have sat and sun. come down! blah blah blah..." i said no. but she was so jian to use my sis, asking my sis to go down with me. wth. i said no means no. i'm not gonna go down and see how you drag your tasks for so long till i get home at 1am.
if only they could spare a thought for others. they could just close shop earlier, so my dad can rest earlier. they could stop calling all the time, expecting you to be at their very beck and call. they could actually finish closing shop before calling my dad. the shop is just less than 10minutes away. thinking for others, it's too difficult for them.
they really get on my nerves.
stupid pop-ups every few minutes are getting on my nerves too.
if you have read thus far, you have patience.
=[
JoC was confused at 9:25 PM
a list
things to be done after common tests:
1) bbq gathering
2) visit miss goh
3) 04s74a outing
4) watch spiderman 2
5) play badminton
6) pw (dreadful but not a choice)
The good thing about JC common test is that it only last a week if you dont count SPA. In fact, if you dont count SPA as something you really need to study for, my common test will only last for 4 days. It is a happy thought.
Anyway, i have decided. i should try to be nicer to my sis. Maybe she will stop being so irritating if i treat her better. in fact, i havent shouted at her today. It is a good improvement. Haha.
Do you notice people's eyes when they are laughing? Try noticing. Maybe you will see that sometimes, the smile never reaches their eyes. It's only momentery joy. or a pretence.
Well, here's wishing everyone good luck mugging. Head's dizzy from studying maths today. Wonder how much i will actually remember.
I used to have more will power to study last year. Lol.
=|
JoC was confused at 10:54 PM
do you?
i was talking to jl about this topic yesterday, and thoughts i havent thought of for a long time sprung to mind.
i wonder...
...where i really stand
cuz you dont seem to care
it seems i live my life and you live yours
...if you were ever happy with what i have done
cuz you never gave words of praise
instead you pick on what i cant excel in
...if you were interested in whatever i was doing
cuz you never came for school performances
you dont even know what subjects i'm taking
i never gave you trouble.
i was good.
i knew what i should do and what i shouldnt.
i know my limits.
maybe that's the reason..
you think you can just leave me alone.
but you forgot..
everyone needs care sometimes.
i dont need you to understand
i dont heart-to-heart talks
i dont need public display of affection
i just need you to show you care.
=(
JoC was confused at 8:54 PM
yawnz
i'm gonna be so dead for common test. i'm still not in the mood for serious mugging. though i did a little mugging at hf today, i quickly got bored of studying. sharks.
4 subjects to cover.
mood is at rock bottom.
this time, i guess i wouldnt be as lucky as the last few times. i'm so not gonna make it.
i feel like sleeping.
as usual.
=S
JoC was confused at 6:07 PM
