[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
silent resistance
PTA meeting was on friday. seriously, there was no need for my parents to go to school to see my teachers. cuz firstly, my grades aint bad. secondly, my teachers dont even know me well enough to comment about me. the comments they make are not constructive. i cant even be bothered to make my stand. when my tutor asked if i had anything to say, i just kept my mouth shut. there was nothing i could say to make them understand anyway.
it seems like each time i feel like i'm wronged by adults, the best thing to do is to shut up. it is all so unfair. but i guess that's life. the more noise you make, the more trouble you get into.
and i realise how little my mum understands about me. she always say she knows us the best, cuz we were inside her for 9 months. but i doubt the validity of that statement. she never knows why i'm silent. she never knows the pain i go through. she never knows anything. and she never bothers to ask. i'm one who would not bother to say anything unless asked.
i understand i'm at fault too. it takes both sides to make a relationship, be it family or friends or lovers. but it's just so difficult when i dont see them making an effort too.
remember reading those story books where the mother is always home when the kids return from school to prepare lunch and to ask them about their day? sometimes i wish i had that. cuz returning to an empty house really does give you a sense of lonliness, especially when you had a tough day in school. perhaps that's why i choose to go out so often. not that staying at home has a difference. has this got to do with our conservative Asian culture?
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place
-Nobody's home (Avril Lavigne)
i hate PTA. cuz it brings out thoughts that i would rather not think about.
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JoC was confused at 6:47 PM
