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[ there are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. and when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand. - "someone like you"]
another boring entry. ha.
ok. i know i havent been blogging for a long time. i have really lost the interest. and each time i start on a new entry, i delete it by the time the entry comes to an end. i see no point in finishing it. let's face it, who's really interested in hearing a 17 year old whine about her life? sorry, nothing interesting for you to read here.
as for interesting stuff i could write about, i dont feel like writing about them. haha.
you can stop reading at this point (if you havent) while i continue blabbling about whatever comes to mind now.
... i feel as if i'm back to secondary 1. holed up. reluctant to say anything. willing to just shut myself from the rest of the whole world. yet blaming the world.
... what is never seen doesnt mean it's never there.
... i saw my primary 5 photos. my, how we all have changed. we all looked so cute! even then, the dark side to people already emerged. it was just more obvious cuz we cant be bothered to hide it. now, it's hard to tell who's really your friend. we say one thing and mean another. we put on a smiling face, but behide lurks danger. which is why i think it's unsafe to reveal too much. you cant really blame me. i have seen it happening.
... i have so many pet peevs. haha. shows how easily i get pissed off by people. but being the weird me, i only feel the pissness at full blast when the person who induced the pissness goes away. maybe that's why people dont think i get pissed.
... glad i went back to secondary school yesterday with shu. to think i almost decided not to go back. it was nice talking to daddy tang and ms ng. ms ng really remembers all the small stuff, like how gil likes the colourful cornflake, or how fast shu learnt to sew. she said i was the co-operative one, the peacemaker. sometimes i hate myself for that. cuz i always seem to be taken advantage of. everyone just wants to get their way.
... i cant understand why some people (ok. a certain someone.) wants to act as if he/she is good friends with everyone. dont he/she find the whole thing so fake? what's the point? is it so important for him/her to feel popular with people even if it's all in him/her mind or put up a show for people to see? sorry, i dont buy it.
my my. aint i in a bitchy mood today hey, at least i didnt give names. i didnt even state if it's a guy or girl. hee.and maybe all of us, at one point or another, tried to be nice to certain people just to get liked. hmm. but still, i dont think that i ever thought i'm good friends with everyone i know or tried to act like i'm good friends with someone i'm not even really talking to.
this sounds like a little like GP essay with an argument, counter argument and rebuttal. haha.
if you have read thus far, i conclude that you can either take my nonsense, or you are just plain bored.
i should write a happier entry soon.
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JoC was confused at 12:22 PM
